Weigh In - Week 6

So no change this week.
Which was good I think. I'm still below 87kgs. YIPPEE!

This week I'm coming back to writing everything down and so far I've been tracking pretty well.
I'm hoping for a decent loss by next Wednesday.

Weigh in

So I weighed in yesterday and lost another 1.1kg. I didn't expect to do so well two weeks in a row. I am actually averaging more than 1kg per week which I am more than happy with. The food diary is keeping me honest. Did slip in a couple of extra half pieces of chocolate brownie tonight. But they are made with mashed banana, wholemeal flour, fat free natural yoghurt and two table spoons of vegie oil. So apart from the large amounts of cocoa and sugar, they are not too bad (no saturated fat anyway).

Still need to refocus on exercise. Had a flash in the pan in week 1 but have been a bit manic since, and haven't made it a priority.

Still have a long way to go. Still need to accept this as a long term plan, not a quick fix.

Still need to go to bed earlier and get more sleep.

last week : 98.6kg
this week: 97.5kg

Weigh In - Week 5

Well, look at that - I get my very own pep talk from Kill, start keeping a food diary and actually try and look what happens...

Last week: 87.5
This week: 86.6

Yey!

Tuesday

So Kill has a food diary she writes in every day - I have one of those too but where I'm at at the moment requires me to write it publicly as my current resolve is not yet strong enough to be 'honest' with myself privately.

Breakfast: two slices five-seed bread w/ homemade apricot jam (YUM), cup of tea

another week

Well, I should have posted last Wednesday so I could gloat over my 1.2kg loss. Never mind, the moment has passed. Still feeling proud of my effort though. Have discovered I need to focus on my goal, loath myself as I am, understand that is not who I really am, and get on with it. Writing everything down keeps me honest and on track. Even if I can't be fagged, I write it down anyway. I have a Symply Too Good To Be True 8 week food journal (from last Christmas) and it is working a treat. $5 from the newsagent. When this one runs out I am getting another - immediately. My initial goal was to lose 5kg before Christmas - I may already be there this week (4.7kg so far). I may adjust the festive goal to 10kg - WOW, that would be great.

Monday

Breakfast: bircher muesli w/ pomegranate seeds and raspberries
Morning tea: handful cheerios (because they were sitting on the bench)
Lunch: 1 mid-sized wholemeal pita bread w/ garlicky tahini and tomatoes
Afternoon tea: 2 apricots, one jamdrop biscuit
Dinner: roasted vegetables w/ gravy (the piece of beef I roasted was inedibly tough... sniff)

The weekend

Wow, not a bad weekend at all - it's like I had to have an out-of-control one like last week. Today was a bit weird because I got up late so breakfast didn't happen - but when I was at the shops buying stuff for lunch and the week ahead I didn't get any crap to fill me up.

I'm quite proud of myself.

The psychology of eating

My shrink has just semi-retired/career-changed and after probably somewhere in the vicinity of 40 years as a psychiatrist he said that he was still no closer to understanding why some people have 'issues' with food and others don't.

But for me, in these early stages of - once again - having to lose weight I feel like a true addict. Each day that passes without me having shovelled more into my mouth than I needed or making food choices that are only going to end badly I psychologically punch the air in victory.

I imagine this is how a gambling addict must feel each and every time they walk past a TAB.
Or an alcoholic walking past the bottle-o.

It is a strange victory, one laden with exhausted resignation.

And so here I stand, another day to get through.

Breakfast:
bowl of porridge w/ stewed rhubarb and pomegranate
Morning tea:
cape seed roll, 1 mango
Lunch:
cape seed roll w/ ham, tomato and rocket
Arvo tea:
small piece of banana parkin
Dinner:
small serve of spaghetti w/ sauteeds broccoli, asparagus and cherry tomatoes

So

Kill left me a pep talk voicemail yesterday.

I've pulled out all my WW books and food diary.

I've written up the two sayings that have kept me focused in the past:

• If you only kind of try to lose weight you'll only kind of lose weight
• Nothing tastes as good as being fit and healthy feels

Today is a new day.

Breakfast - a bowl of porridge w/ stewed rhubard and a drizzle of maple syrup, cup of tea
Morning tea - 2 homemade jamdrop biscuits
Lunch - mulitgrain roll w/ ham, rocket, tomato and mustard, cup of green tea
Dinner - beef stirfy w/ boiled rice and Chinese broccoli

I did it. A day. One day.

Weigh In - Week 4

87.5

Eugh.

daily diary - an example from today

Today I consumed:

• 2 HighBran Weetbix, skim Milk, tub of peaches at 6.45am (out of the house by 7.15am)
• cup of tea in the travel mug
• Trail bar (muesli/nut thing about 1.5 points I think) at 9.45 am (after 2hrs in the car)
• 1/4 rockmelon at 11.30am (in an underground mine)
• ham salad sandwich (no butter, no cheese, dizzle of low fat dijonaise), diet yogurt, apple and trail bar between 3.45pm and 4.30 pm - back in the car for 2.5 hours home

I DID NOT BUY JUNK OR EVEN DIET COKE FROM A SERVO!

• small serve of reheated spag bol at home at 7.30pm
• diet choc mousse at 9pm (after kids in bed)

I reckon about 20-21 points for the day. Apart from the fact that I should have separated lunch and arvo tea, not a bad day. Plenty of food. Planned ahead. Drank lots of water.

prediction

I am hoping for a small loss tomorrow. I have made some effort this week in terms of food. It included being the purveyor of healthy food at both a morning and an afternoon tea - vegie sticks with homemade 4 bean dip. And serving up glasses of water to the girls between (Jewel) champagnes. How responsible I can be - and there was both surprise and encouragement from the girls!

For some reason, despite how great it made me feel in the first week, exercise has been non-existant for the last couple of weeks. When I have a spare minute I may attempt it again.

Week 3 or somesuch...

oh I'm having a shocker people.

Friday, Saturday and Sunday seemed to be the triathalon event of just how much I could eat even though I wasn't hungry and wasn't really enjoying it. Seriously.

No idea why. Self sabotage? My period due? Who the hell knows. I think I averaged about 40 points on Sat and Sunday. Each.

Today has been a moderate improvement.

I would like to lose 5kgs in the next 7 weeks - in time for Christmas.
When that came into my head (I know Kill had been talking about losing 5 for Christmas) I felt a renewed sense of focus.

Hopefully it will help. I certainly know I will be back in the 87 zone this week.

Week 3

I cracked it - the big triple figures are (only just) history. Weigh on Wed was -0.6kg to 99.8kg. Still a disgraceful place to be, and still feeling like a hippo, but it's PROGRESS. And I am determined to be happy with progress.

Weigh In - Week 3

WHOOT!

I cracked the 87.

Last week I weighed: 87.7
This week I weigh: 86.9
Loss: 0.8

I'm not sure about you but I have certain weights which when I hit them it becomes very hard to keep moving.

87kgs is one of them - I have spent a large amount of my life at this weight and I think my body is very used to it. Another point is 74 kgs - I spent a large amount of my life at that weight too. Ofcourse thinking I was massively obese when if I'd lost as little as three kilos I would have been within the weight range for my height.

Anyway. The reason for this week's progress?
Not listening to the voice in my head telling me that I was already so fat and there was no way I had lost any weight so I might as well eat that chocolate.
Asking myself if I had to write down everything I was eating here - on this blog, for the world to see - would I eat it?
And no chips.

I am just stoked to be below 87, even if it is only just.