tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-89074092079540035022024-03-13T12:56:55.515+11:00boombalardyI could say it's about my health, but really I just want to be not fat. Unknownnoreply@blogger.comBlogger122125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8907409207954003502.post-76352440232951636372015-10-26T07:21:00.001+11:002015-10-26T07:21:43.208+11:00Day 7, Week 11/2 sausage roll<br />
chicken and veggie pie<br />
2 slices sourdough with butter<br />
cous cous with chorizo<br />
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What a monumental disaster.<br />
<br />Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8907409207954003502.post-40519224016907051222015-10-25T09:38:00.001+11:002015-10-25T09:38:13.145+11:00Day 6, Week 1Fruit salad - mango, kiwi fruit, blueberries,watermelon<div>
handful of licorice bullets </div>
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dinner out with Jane and Bec - dumplings, salt and pepper pork, noodles, eggplant</div>
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Not a bad day, although I ate way too much for dinner!</div>
Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8907409207954003502.post-76611222939914666242015-10-25T09:36:00.000+11:002015-10-25T09:36:07.413+11:00Day 5, Week 1After yesterday's debacle I am focused today as a fasting day.<br />
So pissed at myself about yesterday.<br />
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Licorice bullets (they're all gone now) (just.don't.buy.them)<br />
Three rows of chocolate (just.don't.buy.it)<br />
Whole packet of lavosh crackers.<br />
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fucksticks<br />
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<br />Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8907409207954003502.post-18075311057164590202015-10-23T11:07:00.001+11:002015-10-23T11:07:08.368+11:00Day 4, Week 1It was going to be a fasting day and then this happened:<br />
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2 breadrolls, one laden with butter<br />
4 thick slices of sourdough again, laden with butter<br />
handful of licorice bullets<br />
1 1/2 toasted sandwiches with cheese and baked beans.<br />
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A bad day,Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8907409207954003502.post-9707210247434681902015-10-21T21:00:00.003+11:002015-10-21T21:00:44.409+11:00Day 3, Week 1Not the greatest of days<br />
Nothing before 12.<br />
Satay chicken pie with friend who called in.<br />
4 pieces of cake<br />
2 rows of rolo chocolate (never had it before, I'm afraid I've broken the seal)<br />
butter chicken sauce<br />
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Not the best, not horrendous.<br />
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Onward.Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8907409207954003502.post-85177023378684789302015-10-20T17:41:00.001+11:002015-10-21T21:01:01.116+11:00Day 2, Week 1Couple of small bites of Turkish toast (Jasper's uneaten offerings) - progress. Last week I would have eaten the lot.<br />
Had a Tokyo Tofu salad at Banana Blossom for lunch - I hadn't been there in months and it was so freakin' delicious.<br />
In the afternoon I had a couple of M&Ms and chips with the kids, not ideal but I didn't gorge, so again, progress.<br />
The boys are out with their dad tonight so I'm not eating.<br />
A good day.Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8907409207954003502.post-16829220811402800052015-10-19T12:48:00.000+11:002015-10-19T12:48:34.077+11:00The RulesI should probably lay out what my rules are in terms of losing weight.<br />
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Yes, I know there are those who say it has to be lifestyle change yadda yadda yadda, you can't restrict yourself too much blah blah blah.<br />
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But I know what works for me and I need structure, I need boundaries.<br />
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Eating small meals throughout the day makes me pile weight on, even if it is nutritious, healthy options, it's just how my body works.<br />
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Eating no grains makes me sad. Eating no fat makes me sadder.<br />
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So I'm doing a blacmange of a few different things.<br />
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The first is no carbs and protein together, and when I do eat carbs they have to have a low GI. I followed this regime and this regime only around 19 years ago and dropped 20kgs. It was manageable and I didn't feel like I was denying myself.<br />
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Having kids broke me of it but now they're older I feel I can return to this principle.<br />
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The hardest component of this for me is bread. Stunning fresh sourdough laden with cultured salted butter. I reassure myself that once the weight is off I can have it every now and then, but in the weight loss phase, no.<br />
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The second is doing the 5:2 thing. This most recent 6kg drop was largely due to that. I was pretty hopeless at the 2 thing but my calorie intake was still way down on what it had been. This time around I'm going to really work at getting that calorie intake to a bare minimum on those two days.<br />
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The thing is, I really like it. It makes me feel like I'm back in control. I know feeling hungry is a good thing and I am having a real psychological battle with myself that I am not going to die and I do not have to be miserable just because my belly is empty.<br />
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The third prong is no eating from 8pm to 12pm. I am doing this following hearing about it on the health report on ABC national. Studies have found fasting from that period every day resulted in more sustained weightloss than 5:2 alone and the weight was kept off more successfully.<br />
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So that's it.<br />
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Embrace the hunger<br />
Back away from the carbs<br />
Lots of soda water<br />
Heaps of veggies<br />
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I haven't talked about exercise yet. Mentally I'm just not there. I know in myself I need to lose more weight first - I want to be back in the 80s before I start. Some will say no no no, get out there! And I'm working on the "ignore the emotion, do the action" theory, but I just need time on this one.<br />
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Onward.Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8907409207954003502.post-35375812860965424222015-10-19T10:38:00.002+11:002015-10-20T08:19:18.981+11:00Day 1, Week 1So here I am. I'm six kilos down but am stuck. I keep self-sabotaging, making excuses and just plain ignoring my goal.<br />
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I'm currently 94kgs or thereabouts (if it's above that I'm going to get too depressed and quit so I'm not looking until this time next week) and my goal is 70.<br />
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My secret goal is 65 but I know me at 72kgs and I'm pretty thin and looking good, so my realistic goal is 70.<br />
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I have 24kgs to go.<br />
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That is so much better than the 30 I had to lose 3 months ago.<br />
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My shrink and I have a goal that I lose 4kgs between each monthly visit. The end of last week (I see him on a Wednesday) was dreadful - pre-menstrual to the hilt and ate carbs for Australia. With lashings of butter.<br />
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So today, Monday, is the start of a new week and refocused goals.<br />
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It may be tedious but this is also going to be my online food diary - the notion of it being public will hold me more accountable.<br />
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Today:<br />
icing - not the best start. (It's Jasper's 10th birthday)<br />
2 cups of tea<br />
2 hard boiled eggs, 1 tsp butter, salt and pepper<br />
1/2 avocado<br />
small bowl of butter chicken, rice and raita (Jasper's birthday dinner)<br />
Piece of lemon sauce cake<br />
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A good day.<br />
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<br />Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8907409207954003502.post-33838533481797484362010-10-18T16:47:00.000+11:002010-10-18T16:47:29.770+11:00Starting all over again. Again.Yep. Been here before.<br />
Sick of the fat.<br />
Sick of the lack of fitness.<br />
Sick of the self-loathing.<br />
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But I'm back.<br />
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10kgs by Christmas.<br />
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I'm also going to do the Couch to 5km program. With Felix. So that will have to start once his whooping cough is dealt with.<br />
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I've got the number for a local Zumba class.<br />
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Mum is well enough I can get back into going for a swim two mornings a week.<br />
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It's time.Unknownnoreply@blogger.com9tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8907409207954003502.post-13893328223974433492010-08-17T23:31:00.004+10:002010-08-17T23:39:07.625+10:00HellooooooooooHowdy strangers<br />Are we back - are we going to nail this sucker once and for all?!!??!!<br />Time to lose it. <br /><br />Criteria and Motivation<br /><ul><li>I am not pregnant (tick)</li><li>I am breastfeeding (tick and tick)</li><li>My stomach is grotesque and hangs about in weird places (ticks me right off)</li><li>I have seen myself in a mirror lately (no tickets on myself there)</li><li>I can not afford a whole new wardrobe...... again (unless fat girl shop has a further 50% off the already reduced ticketed price)</li><li>I am worth it (tick tick tick).</li></ul>Anyone for tennis?Unknownnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8907409207954003502.post-13074531103405586962009-11-04T13:42:00.000+11:002009-11-04T13:42:51.990+11:00Well hello thereI've just returned from my monthly check-in with my psychiatrist. We talked a lot about my weight. About how I <i>need</i> to lose 15kgs to be back in a land where I feel good about myself, look good and am far healthier than I am now.<br />
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This year has been all about the weight loss so naturally I have put on about 4 kilos.<br />
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I'm now the heaviest I've been since 2007, post Grover pregnancy.<br />
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My fat girl clothes are not fitting.<br />
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I am panicked, PANICKED, about my weight.<br />
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Which of course is the worst thing to be because you look on yourself with loathing and the future with fear. Fear of losing the weight but then finding you are not losing the weight. And then your mind becomes a mine field of what ifs. What if this is how I will look for the rest of my life? What if I never lose all this belly fat? What if I develop diabetes? What if What if What if.<br />
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It's so freakin' unhealthy.<br />
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So my shrink, M, gave me a new strategy today. For the first time in my weight loss obsessive life I am not focusing on the end point. I am not focusing on the weight. Instead, I'm going to focus on two things:<br />
1. Activity<br />
2. Portion<br />
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1. Activity<br />
I have to schedule physical activity. Diarise it. If I miss the 'appointment' I have to put a big red cross through it. If I make the 'appointment' then I put a big green tick through it.<br />
It does not have to be every day.<br />
But I have to schedule it and keep the times firm in my diary.<br />
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2. Portion<br />
A return to eating sensible sized portions of whatever I'm eating.<br />
Again, it doesn't have to be every day - we're aiming for 5/6 days out of 7.<br />
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I am not to set foot near scales for at least six weeks. If and only IF I start to notice some clothes fitting better I can weigh myself.<br />
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I am making this sound very didactic which he didn't at all. If he had that would have been a 'sub-optimal' delivery of a message - as M would say. Isn't that awesome. I'm so going to use that with the boys - 'Grover, screaming at me because you're tired but don't want to go to bed is a sub-optimal way of winning favour with me'.<br />
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So - off we go again. Unknownnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8907409207954003502.post-12028252467763525362009-07-17T19:46:00.003+10:002009-07-17T19:57:30.856+10:00Duyvken checks inSlow progress here chez Duyvken has me feeling a little low about this weight loss caper. I know it's the things I do every day that make the difference but I still find myself indulging in Tour de France junk food more than I should. I'm not even staying up to watch the Tour but Mr Duyvken and his cycling pals are often here into the wee hours of the morning and they've been enjoying home-made pizzas, pikelets with caramel sauce and ice-cream, deep fried chicken and plenty of chips, tim tams and OJ. It's the leftover tim tams and chocolates that are bringing me down!<br />I'm still losing weight but nowhere near as quickly as I would have liked. Of course, the irritating thing about this is that I know it is entirely within my control. I just need to do more sustained exercise - longer walks, cycling, running, etc but it is too easy to take the slacker option.<br />I don't want to be a slacker so I'd better start making some better decisions and I'd better do it quickly!<br />I hope all my fellow boombalardians are well and heading in the right direction,<br />Duyvken.<br /><br />Current weight: 57.5Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8907409207954003502.post-13312144432169530462009-05-31T08:53:00.002+10:002009-05-31T08:53:44.437+10:00Steady as she goes<a href="http://www.TickerFactory.com/weight-loss/w5wwjgP/"><br /><img border="0" src="http://tickers.TickerFactory.com/ezt/t/w5wwjgP/weight.png" /></a><br /><br /><br />There's a reason for this continued success. I'll blog about it when I can find a moment from screaming battling children to tell you.Unknownnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8907409207954003502.post-29553620812360265082009-05-25T08:33:00.000+10:002009-05-25T08:34:38.888+10:00Back on it again<a href="http://www.TickerFactory.com/weight-loss/w3Fg7tK/"><br /><img border="0" src="http://tickers.TickerFactory.com/ezt/t/w3Fg7tK/weight.png" /></a><br /><br /><br />Wanting to lose weight for Greece and for me.<br /><br />Fat fat the water rat.<br /><br />xUnknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8907409207954003502.post-18260227843243045362009-05-24T14:29:00.002+10:002009-05-24T14:30:50.396+10:00So I'm just quietly going about trying to deal with the rolls<a href="http://www.TickerFactory.com/weight-loss/w5wwjgP/"><br /><img border="0" src="http://tickers.TickerFactory.com/ezt/t/w5wwjgP/weight.png" /></a><br /><br /><br />it seems to be working.<br /><br />That said, my shrink said to me this week that if you imagine a drug that causes weight gain then increase that one hundredfold and you have the impact of the drug I'm on. Great.Unknownnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8907409207954003502.post-6294165412309534632009-03-31T14:38:00.004+11:002009-03-31T14:54:47.807+11:00Day 10 Fitstorm - Shredding for successSo I'm up to Day 10. For those of you good at maths you'll realise it has taken more than 10 days to get me to Day 10 - yeah. Sorry about that.<br /><br />My initial plan was to do it five days a week for six weeks. Then last week happened and I had things on, people to see, places to go, a head cold and allergies that have left me with a burst capillary in my left eye. Noice.<br /><br />So I'm up to Day 10. I've done six days of Level 1 and three days of Level 2. Some clothes are definitely feeling better - well, the skirt I live in which was getting tighter and tighter is not so tight. Still tight, but not to the point I have to undo it at the end of the day or after a meal.<br /><br />So here's the drill.<br /><br />I'm still not 100 per cent committed.<br />Doesn't that sound ridiculous.<br />But I'm not.<br />And you know why?<br />Because I'm scared of failing. I'm scared that if I lose this weight I'll put it all back on.<br />Like I have every other time I've lose a significant amount of weight.<br /><br />And yes, I know how stupid, defeatist and ridiculous that is.<br /><br />So - AGAIN - I'm sucking it up and keeping on going.<br /><br />I'm up to Day 10 of Jillian Michael's 30 day shred.<br />I can now do proper push ups and touch the floor without bending my knees.<br /><br />I am not weighing myself.<br /><br />I'm going to take my measurements at the end of the week and see how different they are from ones I took last year.<br /><br />And I'm working out a meal plan so we don't end up eating pasta five nights a week.<br /><br />I find if I'm organised in terms of what I'm going to have for breakfast/lunch/dinner I stay on track much better than if I don't.<br /><br />I'm also going to try and adhere to some of Jillian's advice:<br />Don’t eat anything that doesn’t come out of the ground or have a mother<br /><br />I'm still going.Unknownnoreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8907409207954003502.post-5332422343269249322009-03-24T22:23:00.002+11:002009-03-24T22:27:18.310+11:00Day 6 FitstormSo granted, I am a day behind (I'm doing this five days a week for six weeks ... to get to the 30 days) but today I started on Level 2 (out of three) with JIIIIIlian.<br /><br />Holy crap people.<br />The sweat, the intensity, the complicated moves requiring coordination I simply don't have.<br />Seriously, a lot of it seemed to require me to be ready to do a push up, but instead I'm pulling my legs up together, separately, bending one leg and swinging it through to the other side, crunching with my legs in the air. It was like a game of solo Twister.<br /><br />I've given the scales away for the moment, they don't do anything for my mental state in trying to lose weight. Instead, I'm using the 'holy hell don't waste all that effort with JIIIIIlian' approach.<br /><br />I'll weigh myself in a couple of weeks.Unknownnoreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8907409207954003502.post-12233217467251544522009-03-19T21:35:00.002+11:002009-03-19T21:37:39.711+11:00Day 4 of FitstormSo I've done the shred every day this week - on Tuesday I thought something was going to snap, yesterday I sweated like a hog and today, well today I did push-ups on my toes rather than on my knees. I'm building up to shifting to level two next Monday.<br /><br />I think I might throw the scales away, they mess with my head. Because I was feeling 'tighter' I weighed myself this morning and it said I was 89. FUCK OFF SCALES.<br /><br />Naturally I ate too much today instead. IDIOT.Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8907409207954003502.post-39618215269121325902009-03-16T13:31:00.002+11:002009-03-16T13:43:11.042+11:00FitstormSo today I started Jillian Michaels' 30 Day Shred.<br /><br />Because I have some sort of muscle death wish.<br /><br />Actually, I did level 1 and it was fine. I managed the whole thing except for one point when I thought my hamstring may indeed snap.<br /><br />I didn't even have to battle for space on the floor because I attempted to clean up yesterday.<br /><br />My plan is to do Level 1 for a week, Level 2 for 2 and Level 3 the remainder of the 30 days.<br /><br />I like that it's only 20 minutes, that it's intense and that she breaks it down into short intense bursts. I bore easily.<br /><br />Then I finished it, thinking, that was OK. And then I wanted to hurl. For about three hours. It is a serious workout which took me by surprise. Let's see what the month brings.<br /><br />OH, and I weighed myself this morning. 88.3kg.<br /><br />So I've lost 1.5kgs in six weeks. I'm pretty pissed off at that effort, considering the fact that I'm not eating any crap and exercising my arse off. I know I know, the slower the better, I'm doing it the right way, but I would have liked to have been closer to 80 than 90kgs.<br /><br />Oh, and watching The Biggest Loser doesn't help - some of those boombalardies are now in the 80s and the fact they're going to pass me is really giving me the shits.Unknownnoreply@blogger.com9tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8907409207954003502.post-73061436979601312512009-03-12T13:09:00.002+11:002009-03-12T13:11:07.705+11:00Vices...and I have not had a turkish delight all week.<br />I miss my sweet little foil wrapped friend.Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8907409207954003502.post-67945481704438122032009-03-12T12:36:00.003+11:002009-03-12T13:09:18.096+11:00UpdateI hate my double stroller. It's got tiny hard rubber wheels that refuse to all go in the same direction at once, the frame is getting rickety and I need to give it a good shove every time I want to start moving.<br />We got it 2nd hand from friends when C was born in exchange for Mr Duyvken fixing their riddling rack. The price was right so we took it and although it's been great for getting around the shops it is hopeless on footpaths, nature strips, etc. It stops every time it encounters a small bump in it's path and I end up nearly breaking my neck when I try to jog. I even tipped it forward one day trying to get across the street. C and JW were well strapped in and were fine, thank goodness but it cemented my dislike for the 12 wheeled beast.<br />Despite keeping an eye on sales, ebay, the trading post, etc I haven't been able to find a double stroller with pneumatic tyres at a price that meets my budget, As C gets older I get closer to only needing the single stroller again so spending money on a decent double wouldn't be sensible and I am trying to be patient with it.<br />I took it for a walk again this morning, fighting with it up all the hills, battling with it around corners and trying hard not to let it run away from me when descending all the while being breezed past by women pushing jogger strollers who seemed immune to the evil lasers I was shooting at their fast retreating backs. I am hoping that all the wrestling the stroller requires means I am getting a reasonable upper body workout and I will soon have the biceps to roll one of those mums for their stroller. They'd never catch up with me once I took off on those inflated tyres!<br /><br />This week -<br />Monday - swim, crunches<br />Tuesday - 5km walk<br />Wedsnesay - crunches<br />Thursday - 8km walk with stroller wrestling, crunchesUnknownnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8907409207954003502.post-13027005105113261002009-03-09T18:59:00.003+11:002009-03-09T18:59:49.387+11:00YogaI did half an hour of a yoga DVD this morning.<br /><br />I sweated as much as I do walking the boys to school and back.<br /><br />I still feel nauseous.Unknownnoreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8907409207954003502.post-67079220089168347732009-03-09T13:49:00.003+11:002009-03-09T14:00:58.283+11:00Exercise ContinuersJ had a swimming lesson this morning and my mum kindly looked after the younger two so I was able to swim some laps while J was having his lesson instead of standing by the pool watching him and entertaining C and JW. The lesson goes for half an hour so I only swam for 20 mins but it was great. It's such a lovely way to exercise. I am particularly pleased to have done it because the forecast is for rain all week which means I probably won't be able to do the long walks I started last week. At least, not with the double stroller. It looks like I'll be going out for a run when Mr Duyvken gets home from work or waking early and exercising before he needs to leave in the mornings. I hate getting up early but I'll set the alarm anyway, apparently I am an optimist!<br />Mr Duyvken also taught me a way to do crunches that I am finding much easier and much more effective than the other ways I've been doing them. I'll share that with you next time, OK?Unknownnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8907409207954003502.post-75447099204252060712009-03-06T19:38:00.005+11:002009-03-06T20:06:21.988+11:00Adventure Racing and Long WalksThe walk that I've been doing is 8km long and hilly. I did it 3 times this week (the 3 days my 4yo is at pre-school) and that is what I am going to do each week between now and the adventure race I mentioned yesterday.<br />We're doing one of the sprint races in the <a href="http://www.maxadventure.com.au/AdventureSeries/TheCourse.htm">Kathmandu Adventure</a> series. You don't know exactly what you'll be doing until you get there and get your course map for the day. The teams who really know what they're doing then spend some time plotting the fastest course, Mr Duyvken and I look at the topography lines and hope for the best. It's a combination of trail running, mountain biking and kayaking, the running and kayaking should be fine but I really need to spend more time biking than I did in 2007. I really wasn't confident on the bike and it cost us a lot of time. I blogged about it (albeitly briefly) <a href="http://duyvken.blogspot.com/2007/06/tulips-for-lady.html">here</a>. That was way back in 2007. We were the 3rd or 4th last team to finish so it shouldn't be too difficult to improve on that!<br />I haven't been doing the crunches, why do I hate them so much?Unknownnoreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8907409207954003502.post-25170376663038350562009-03-05T23:13:00.004+11:002009-03-05T23:25:01.010+11:00The Fast TrackEnough messing around.<br /><br />I want my clothes to fit.<br /><br />Not a snug fit either, I want them to be comfortable.<br /><br />And I want to enjoy running again.<br /><br />I would like that to happen soon.<br /><br />So, in the spirit of making some of this stuff happen quickly, and being very impressed by all the walking Kim has been doing, I went on a <em>long</em> walk today and yesterday pushing the youngest two in the double stroller. I'll figure out distance, etc tomorrow, but it takes just under 2hrs and is <em>hilly</em>. (Why don't I live somewhere flat?)<br /><br />And Mr Duyvken and I have signed for an adventure race.<br /><br />We did it 2 years ago when C was a baby and I <em>adored</em> it.<br /><br />It was wet, it was freezing, it was hard but it was amazing and I am excited about doing it again. I really need to kick my fitness up a few notches to be able to do it though so that means no more whining and complaining, it is time for action! Who's with me?<br /><br />Now, if they would just stop making Fry's turkish delight bars this would be a whole lot easier.<br /><br />Do not Google Fry's turkish delight because you will find the chocablog website.<br />You have been warned.Unknownnoreply@blogger.com1