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Well it's official.
I am pretty certain I'm going backwards.
Can't stop eating chocolate.
Think in my head 'food is fuel' and then thumb.even.my.big.fat.nose. at it.

Must get back on track.
MUST.

Update

Appalling.
February.
Blew Chunks.
Which made me say something like the following:
"Food for fuel not comfort MY ARSE"
or
"Nothing tastes as good as being thin and fit feels GET BENT"
Followed by an enormous consumption of chocolate
Not seen since about 2003.

Going back to work = not being able to get to my WW meeting anymore.
The only one that fits is a Wednesday night and that, my friends, on a day I am at work is in the too hard basket.
So what to do what to do.
Because I need to get to 65 kilos sometime before 2010.
Just because.

So the plan while I find a WW meeting I can get to
(because clearly yes I do need the threat of a public weigh-in gain to keep me on track)
is to write a food journal.
And to write it here
because the three of you that seem to check in here every day?
I know how scintillating you will find it.

Yesterday:
Breakfast - bowl of Special K with low fat yoghurt and skim milk
Lunch - toast with homemade jam (yes I need to do a grocery shop)
Dinner - corned beef w/ three veg mash (made w/ skim milk, no butter) and white sauce (made w/ skim milk) and broccoli
Water - 3 x 600ml bottles

Today:
Breakfast - bowl of Special K with low fat yoghurt and skim milk
Lunch - bowl of vegetable noodle soup w/ rice vermicelli noodles
Dinner - homemade pizza w/ onion, mushroom, little bit of ham and low fat ricotta (YUM)
Water - 3 x 600ml
4 squares Lindt cherry intense dark chocolate

I know, the excitement is breathtaking.

And in another new leaf, I'm opening up comments over here.
Be.Nice.
No Assvice please.

Weigh In - Week 20

-0.9

That, people, is just plain luck.
I have no idea how I did that.

Well, maybe an inkling.
You see, about 11 years ago I lost about 27kgs following a program by this French guy, Michel Montignac that he called 'Dine Out and Lose Weight'.
In a nutshell it is food combining.
I guess it must be like Atkins but more balanced - for you still eat carbs but you try to eat only good carbs and not with protein.
It means 11 years ago I was working off gylcemic index principles that became all the rage recently.
And well dudes, it works.
Clearly.
I've been doing it since Week 12 and every week since (almost) I've lost.

But I haven't been ruthless with it because this time round what I'm doing/eating has to be sustainable.
I mean, only ever eating a pasta dish with virtually no fat and no meat?
Get real.
I mean, Thai/Japanese/Chinese/other Asian cuisine without rice?
Get real.
A poached egg on its own? Without a slice of toast?
Get real.

But if I do have pasta that's rich or has a meat based sauce, I'm only eating a small bowl with a lot more salad.
If we're having Thai takeaway I'm only having a small portion of rice.

And you know what happens when I do this?
My sugar intake and my fat intake go down dramatically.
My cravings become a lot clearer (ie - it's not I need chips it's I really need something salty etc)

So there you go, that's where I'm at.

Exercise has been non-existent as it's just been in the too hard basket and I'm also conscious of when I get into the 70s that is when I need to pull out the exercise folder as the 70s is where I've resided most of my adult life and this body hates letting go of those layers.

Weigh In - Week 19

OK, so I didn't go to WW from 21 December until last Thursday.
But get this.
My goal for last week was to be 87.5kgs.

So sure, I hadn't been in four weeks.
But I LOST 0.1kg.
100grams.
It might as well have been 1kg.

But that 100 grams meant I was at my mini-goal.

Of course the week of eating this past week will probably ruin it, but there you go.

Weigh-in tomorrow.

Back on track

OK, so I haven't been to WW for two weeks. The first was Boxing Day and I think it only fair that I had a short reprieve. And last week was because I just knew it would be ugly.

I KNOW this week will be ugly - I suspect the gain is going to be somewhere around the 2kg mark. There is no way the amount of saturated fat and in particular CREAM I have ingested in the last fortnight could not have pushed me out that far.

BUT, that said, it has been a sumptious two weeks of baking and good food and now I am ready to face this year of further good food and baking, just maybe a bit less butter.

My goal is to be at 85kg by the time I am due back to work - 4 Feb.
My goal is to be under 70kg, ideally somewhere around 68kg by my birthday.
I have a notion of being 66 by 36, but that's just because I like the sound of it.
I haven't been 66 kgs since about 1986, so you know, it'd be a golden goal.


But I'm back. It's going to be a bumpy ride, but knowing how much happier and confident I am when I'm not this size.

Weigh In - Week 15`

OK - much to say, much to updated, but yesterday:

10 KILOS!

I've lost 10 kilos.

Un-effing-believable.

Am stoked.

Have kicked the 90kgs land to the curb.

At this rate - by February - so of my work clothes may even fit!

How have I done it?
1. stress
2. anxiety
3. busy

really.

Week 13, Day 1

Breakfast:
natural yoghurt with stewed rhubarb

Lunch:
Lentil burger w/ rocket and cherry tomoatoes

Snacks:
4 cruskits
1 plum
4 passionfruit

Exercise:
1 massive walk going about half way around Narrabeen Lake and back - I think we were gone for about 1.5 hours, maybe 1hr 20?